Arielene Wee
I shall never grow up, make believe is much too fun.
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Tuesday, December 01, 2009
Holidays holidays, I've been sucha bum. All those plans made throughout the year to go find a temp job after o's have vanished. I'm wasting everyday that I don't go out on the computer.
Oh yes, everybody go watch Glee! Especially if you're a music person. It's my new favourite show and it makes me so happy everytime hee hee.
It doesn't feel too Christmassy yet, sadly. And I need Christmas movies & Christmas songs. Can't wait for Christmas though! It's the thing I look forward to every year, along with birthdays. Yknow how I always come up with a Christmas wish list? Yeah well these days, there's nothing specific I really want anymore. Or if they're specific, they're like non-Christmas-present items. So I think I'll just dream of the things I want for now. If you're getting me anything for Christmas, surprise me! :)
Off to Hong Kong tomorrow. Cool weather + dim sum + shopping sound really awesome right now. I hope I manage to find cool stuff! ^^ (I normally don't use faces like those, but I can't think of anything else to express how I'm feeling)
Oh yes, everybody go watch Glee! Especially if you're a music person. It's my new favourite show and it makes me so happy everytime hee hee.
It doesn't feel too Christmassy yet, sadly. And I need Christmas movies & Christmas songs. Can't wait for Christmas though! It's the thing I look forward to every year, along with birthdays. Yknow how I always come up with a Christmas wish list? Yeah well these days, there's nothing specific I really want anymore. Or if they're specific, they're like non-Christmas-present items. So I think I'll just dream of the things I want for now. If you're getting me anything for Christmas, surprise me! :)
Off to Hong Kong tomorrow. Cool weather + dim sum + shopping sound really awesome right now. I hope I manage to find cool stuff! ^^ (I normally don't use faces like those, but I can't think of anything else to express how I'm feeling)
3:33 PM;
Thursday, November 19, 2009
O's are over, prom is over, I feel old.
I guess it's official then, I'm out of IJ and I'm school-less. The thought of JC and O-level results scares me. The thought of not being with people who have known me, who have been putting up with me for at least 4 years scares me. But I guess we all have to let go, move on & get on with life.
The other night at prom, I kept turning to Su Lin whenever the deejay started playing songs I liked. Then she'd go "I know!" and I'd go "Why!!!" and she'd reply things like "Because it's so you" or "Because you've written it in your journal". And then I'll go all <3 because who the hell would bother reading the lyrics in my journal, especially when most of them are non-radio songs. And this morning, Francine was telling me to go early for the Shooting gathering because she hasn't heard my whinings for very long. And then I went all <3 again because the shooters & the 4/2 people have been putting up with my constant whinings. I'm scared that if I whine in jc, I'll get slapped by people :/
Anyway now that it's the holidays, I feel free & kinda lost. Maybe it's because I don't have any work to do, anything to study. Yeah I might be a geek that way, sue me. But it feels like I have no aim, no purpose anymore until the O-level results come out.
Meanwhile, I'm looking forward to Hong Kong & Christmas & Egypt. I wish I could rewind, pause & fast-forward life. Then maybe I could fast-forward and go to Hong Kong or Egypt right now, pause so that my trips stay longer, rewind when the O-level results day are nearing. Happy thoughts, but impossible sigh.
I guess it's official then, I'm out of IJ and I'm school-less. The thought of JC and O-level results scares me. The thought of not being with people who have known me, who have been putting up with me for at least 4 years scares me. But I guess we all have to let go, move on & get on with life.
The other night at prom, I kept turning to Su Lin whenever the deejay started playing songs I liked. Then she'd go "I know!" and I'd go "Why!!!" and she'd reply things like "Because it's so you" or "Because you've written it in your journal". And then I'll go all <3 because who the hell would bother reading the lyrics in my journal, especially when most of them are non-radio songs. And this morning, Francine was telling me to go early for the Shooting gathering because she hasn't heard my whinings for very long. And then I went all <3 again because the shooters & the 4/2 people have been putting up with my constant whinings. I'm scared that if I whine in jc, I'll get slapped by people :/
Anyway now that it's the holidays, I feel free & kinda lost. Maybe it's because I don't have any work to do, anything to study. Yeah I might be a geek that way, sue me. But it feels like I have no aim, no purpose anymore until the O-level results come out.
Meanwhile, I'm looking forward to Hong Kong & Christmas & Egypt. I wish I could rewind, pause & fast-forward life. Then maybe I could fast-forward and go to Hong Kong or Egypt right now, pause so that my trips stay longer, rewind when the O-level results day are nearing. Happy thoughts, but impossible sigh.
11:53 AM;
Thursday, October 15, 2009
And just like that, 10 years of IJ ended ): No more school song & morning prayer/hymn & masses ever. No more familiar faces. No more friendly & warm people/teachers. No more familiar environment. No more doing things as you wish, doing silly things without really embarassing yourself. No more doing stupid things then have your friends let you know you're being stupid but still making you feel good/happy. No more turning to people who you can tell almost everything to and who will then make you feel better. No more Mr Teh & Mr Chan forever ):
In jc, there'll be boys! Stupid disgusting smelly boys. Who you can't complain/whine about girl stuff to. Like periods & cramps & bad hair days & wedgies. And then there are males teachers too, which is hard to get used to when 90% of the teachers in ij are females. In jc, it won't be ij! Where you feel right at home after being there for 10 years. Where you've seen just about almost everyone around school before. Where you know at least one-third of people's names even if you've never spoken a word to them before. Where everyone's nice & warm & friendly & helpful. Where there are religious stuff to keep me in check, so that I don't turn all unholy. Okay the list goes on so I should just shut up now.
But omg yknow today! Court Mao QY and I were leaving IJ when it started to pour!!! Suddenly, and heavily. How apt huh? Reflection of our moods + a sign that was shouting at us not to leave the gates of IJ (because it was damn heavy and we only had 2 umbrellas; yes I know I'm being stupid & dramatic). It's a depressing day, leaving IJ. Now I'm officially an IJ alumni member, no more IJ student OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. I want to cry x100000000000000000000. All I can say is, at least I still have to wear my IJ uniform, at least I'll still get to go to IJ, at least I'll still see my friends. Because of the darned O's hoho.
And shit, I feel damn old leaving IJ.
Something tells us deep inside, IJ friends are friends for life.
In jc, there'll be boys! Stupid disgusting smelly boys. Who you can't complain/whine about girl stuff to. Like periods & cramps & bad hair days & wedgies. And then there are males teachers too, which is hard to get used to when 90% of the teachers in ij are females. In jc, it won't be ij! Where you feel right at home after being there for 10 years. Where you've seen just about almost everyone around school before. Where you know at least one-third of people's names even if you've never spoken a word to them before. Where everyone's nice & warm & friendly & helpful. Where there are religious stuff to keep me in check, so that I don't turn all unholy. Okay the list goes on so I should just shut up now.
But omg yknow today! Court Mao QY and I were leaving IJ when it started to pour!!! Suddenly, and heavily. How apt huh? Reflection of our moods + a sign that was shouting at us not to leave the gates of IJ (because it was damn heavy and we only had 2 umbrellas; yes I know I'm being stupid & dramatic). It's a depressing day, leaving IJ. Now I'm officially an IJ alumni member, no more IJ student OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. I want to cry x100000000000000000000. All I can say is, at least I still have to wear my IJ uniform, at least I'll still get to go to IJ, at least I'll still see my friends. Because of the darned O's hoho.
And shit, I feel damn old leaving IJ.
Something tells us deep inside, IJ friends are friends for life.
2:36 PM;
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
I <3 (500) DAYS OF SUMMER! Good music + cute story + quirky little things (Y) I am very very happy hee hee.
And now, my dream boy has two dimples and a smallboy-smile like Joseph Gordon-Levitt's. Hee hee hee hee so cute! Don't laugh at me please :/ It's really damn cute omg.
I'm thinking that I kinda got burned out from prelims. Shit I'm damn scared :/ My sleeping habits are a freaking mess. And I'm so tired, I've been sleeping almost every afternoon. But even then, I only sleep for short stretches both in the afternoon and at night. Omg damn bad man, I haven't hit the books :/
And today, we finally the cj talk. I am damn scared now! PE omg. I could just die in the first lesson. I don't know where to go anymore, how now brown cow.
And now, my dream boy has two dimples and a smallboy-smile like Joseph Gordon-Levitt's. Hee hee hee hee so cute! Don't laugh at me please :/ It's really damn cute omg.
I'm thinking that I kinda got burned out from prelims. Shit I'm damn scared :/ My sleeping habits are a freaking mess. And I'm so tired, I've been sleeping almost every afternoon. But even then, I only sleep for short stretches both in the afternoon and at night. Omg damn bad man, I haven't hit the books :/
And today, we finally the cj talk. I am damn scared now! PE omg. I could just die in the first lesson. I don't know where to go anymore, how now brown cow.
7:06 PM;
Sunday, September 27, 2009
I am an idiot. Really ): The biggest ever, sigh.
Back to school tomorrow, where we'll be getting our papers back. Omg I don't want ): I freaking messed up everything lah, how now brown cow? I did the most hardcore mugging that I'd ever done during those few weeks, but I think it'll be the worst results ever. Stupidest 4 weeks of whatjamightcallit :/
Back to school tomorrow, where we'll be getting our papers back. Omg I don't want ): I freaking messed up everything lah, how now brown cow? I did the most hardcore mugging that I'd ever done during those few weeks, but I think it'll be the worst results ever. Stupidest 4 weeks of whatjamightcallit :/
10:14 PM;
Saturday, September 26, 2009
I AM FREAKING ANNOYED WITH MY IPOD. I spent 2 and a half hours trying to fit the best songs into that little 4 gig space. But it was so hard I gave up. Bah humbug.
It's officially a month to o's zomg. I want to die ): I'm so freaking unprepared. And school only ends on the 15th of october which is like what the shit, seriously. I am also super not excited for the graduation ceremony.
Yesterday I malu-ed myself in the bus when it stopped at the sji bus stop. I saw my kindergarten friend and shouted his name. I thought I could get away with humiliation cos I was standing at the doors of the bus, close enough to my friend. But no, everyone stared. Court laughed her ass off, but I think my kindergarten friend was used to having me shout his name whenever I see him. So it's not too bad, I only embarrassed myself in front of complete strangers.
Sigh I'm hoping some thing will work out eventually. One day. Maybe a few years down the road. But maybe that's really wishful thinking. Oh well, VISUALISE ACTUALISE PRAY - one of the few things we got out of retreat yesterday heh.
It's officially a month to o's zomg. I want to die ): I'm so freaking unprepared. And school only ends on the 15th of october which is like what the shit, seriously. I am also super not excited for the graduation ceremony.
Yesterday I malu-ed myself in the bus when it stopped at the sji bus stop. I saw my kindergarten friend and shouted his name. I thought I could get away with humiliation cos I was standing at the doors of the bus, close enough to my friend. But no, everyone stared. Court laughed her ass off, but I think my kindergarten friend was used to having me shout his name whenever I see him. So it's not too bad, I only embarrassed myself in front of complete strangers.
Sigh I'm hoping some thing will work out eventually. One day. Maybe a few years down the road. But maybe that's really wishful thinking. Oh well, VISUALISE ACTUALISE PRAY - one of the few things we got out of retreat yesterday heh.
11:13 PM;
LETTING GO. For now, at least. Cos it's really not the time to let anything bog me down. I haven't felt so peaceful for a while now. Not completely, but getting there. Loved yesterday's retreat; what if it's the last one ever ):
4:47 PM;
Thursday, September 24, 2009
I can't believe I went through so much shit throughout these past 4 weeks for nothing. Seriously. Which is only gonna make me want to fight more. Even if it takes me a damn long time. That's bad though, I should let go. But I can't. I can have all the support, care, love, comfort, assurances that I want from my friends but what I really need, to fully let go, are answers.
I think tomorrow's retreat comes in extremely good time. I'm looking for some inner peace. Hopefully it IS a retreat like everyone says it would be, except no one knows for sure cos the teachers didn't say anything. I love retreats and I love to cry (: okay I know that totally makes me sound crazy, don't judge.
I think tomorrow's retreat comes in extremely good time. I'm looking for some inner peace. Hopefully it IS a retreat like everyone says it would be, except no one knows for sure cos the teachers didn't say anything. I love retreats and I love to cry (: okay I know that totally makes me sound crazy, don't judge.
9:12 PM;